Finally, the last night here. All seem to be packed and ready to go. Last night.

I have a few hours to catch some sleep. But i wonder what dream will it be. And how will i feel when i finally catch my last sleep.

I have not decided how i will feel. Perhaps I will decide when morning comes.

It is a wierd feeling. Highly packed with memories... highly...

i put this last entry from 34 jalan cokmar. I can only record so much of me here.

The feeling this feeling of me here entering my last blog from the house i stayed for 26 years. I wish i never have to. but it is here to make me feel it.

so long for now... thank you walls. thank you memories.

It is my second last night here in this house that i spent 26 years in. 34 Jln Cokmar. What shall I be feeling?

Being in front of this screen, listening to my typing alone with the sound of the noisy fan still humming behind me. All see like any other night but i know it will be one of my last times typing in this house.

We will be moving... moving things to the new place. But we can't move the memories this place has provided us because afterall i did so many things in this house. From my first baby step, to my first exam paper in primary school, secondary school.... Many things. And i owe it to this place and the people who made the memory for me.

I was taking snap shots of the house. Frantically. I want to capture the last essence and hopefully bring it with me. But I know i am snapping just a faction of it. Not to be compared to the feelings that have seeped into the walls here.

Most of the things are packed. No longer it feels like the same place. It has become colder.. and colder... soon the feeling will become memory. only to be dug out at times when i need it.

I can't possibly cry. But i can't help to feel sad as well. i know that this day will eventually come. And just that for us it has come rather suddenly.

I have got to say thank you to the walls here which gave me shelter, memory , fun, sadness, and making me me.

I grew up in this place. And it is time to say byebye to it.

Today I just performed this little magic trick that involves two rubber bands. Idea is to make two interlocking rubber bands melt through each other. I did it for two of my colleagues and there came the five words " Can you do it again ? " . The day before I was actually showing this same trick to two of my tuition kids and I guess the reaction I got was exactly the reaction I had on my face when I first saw it on the television. It was one of the David Copperfield Specials back then which is rarely shown on TV in the 1980's .

One simple trick to me now. If I could recall it properly I guess I got to watch the trick being performed when I was 7 years old or so. Always remain in my mind since then and only when I am 23 before I finally purchased it over the internet and learn the secret.

Perhaps it is these kind of events that happen in my childhood that lead me to where I am now in this niche interest. How an event had probably influence my interest and kept me captivated.

Who knows maybe the two tuition kids will experience the same flow. A secret kept over 10+ years before it is finally resolved. Like the kid in me opening up a present and learning a new magic trick. Just that it takes a bit longer for me. Still I think I remember the kid i saw in me when I was doing the trick just like David did it for me over the television.